Right in the middle of a bad day

I spent the morning making and returning important phone calls which is a bit stressful for me. I don't like to be on the phone with people I don't know; it has something to do with not being able to see their body language. Because I was on the phone all morning I did not get anything else done. This wasn't a big deal because I usually am most productive during the kids nap time. Well, today they are not napping. So I am getting none of my chores done. This means my house is very unorganized, which in turns leaves my brain unorganized. My horrible, sinful, manshell is telling me that I'm lazy and good for nothing, that my kids and my husband deserve better, and that I should just run away. In order to fight this horrible monster of guilt and keep my depression from taking over I'm making a list. A list of things I got done today.

1. Got up early and had breakfast with my husband.
2. Helped my husband pack his lunch.
3. Got all four of the kids dressed
4. made sure all four of the kids ate breakfast
5. Helped Cale do his math homework
6. took a shower
7. got dressed
8. got Cale and Ila to school with time to play
9. changed a poopy diaper
10. switched the laundry around that I started yesterday
11. talked to the school psychologist
12. talked to my mom
13. swept the kitchen floor
14. started the washing machine
15. talked to the school pyschologist again
16. returned a call to the head of the autism team
17. called qwest about switching my cell phone over to verizon
18. got our new cell phones ordered
19. called comcast to find out why our phone number keeps coming up on everyone's caller ID when it is supposed to be nonpublished.
20. talked to the head of the autism team
21. set a date for sitting down with the sutism team and giving them some background info on Cale
22. talked to the school pyschologist again
23. talked to the Dr. who originally diagnosed Cale last fall
24. made lunch for my kiddos
25. changed a poopy diaper
26. ate lunch with my kids
27. read a book to Scotlynn
28. entered data in the school directory I'm working on
29. put kids down for naps
30. changed a poopy diaper
31. rescued the kitten from Dante
32. checked my email
33. changed another poopy diaper
34. emailed my sisters with prayer requests
35. put the kids back to bed
36. put the kids back to bed
37. talked to a woman who was calling to get a reference on a friend of mine
38. left Tina a message about this weekend
39. put the kids to bed again
40. gave up putting the kids to bed
41. sat down and typed a list of things I've done today.

Things I have yet to do today
1. get the kids from school
2. swing by the Dr.'s office and fill out paperwork
3. give kids a snack
4. pray
5. take kids to church for dinner and AWANA

*as posted on String of Pearls 9/17/08Right